Girl Looking For Love

Yes today I'm in a "What the hell do men want!" reflective mood!!!! lol...i've just had a 19 year old texting me - he's very very fit and we have kissed before and he wants to take it further.... he is rather young though.... but it is very flattering...Also had a text from another guy who is flirting with me..... but these guys i'm sure are only after one thing..... now don't call me a prude....after all you should know me by now - i'm no prude! In fact it bloody annoys me how guys can have as much sex as they want and be cool and us girls would get a rep if we slept with everyone we wanted to and had chance to!! Don't even get me started on it!! And also, whilst we're on the subject, I just don't get why it is that girls can say "no sex for you for a while boyo!"... as if its only the man who wants sex all the time! I would find that torture myself! Am I in the minority of women who absolutely love sex and can't get enough of it???

Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, so these guys only want sex i'm guessing....and as much as I love sex (see above!! lol)... I want more ... I want lots of sex AND lots of cuddles and love with it....

Am I asking too much?? I'm starting to feel like I am....!!
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Well the week at work has been titillating as usual with me and him.... teasing each other...flirting, little touches, saying what we want to do with each other with our eyes, lips being licked, bodies leaning close towards one another when seemingly talking of everyday things.... wow.... then last night we msn'd each other and got each other into a frenzy... i had my my hand inside my panties as he typed what he would do to me if we ever did get it on..... he had a hard on and wanted to bend me over and fuck me right and then.... i just wish we could have done! ... then he rang me... waited til I was in bed and wanted saucy pics... i took a few and sent them him... close up of my smooth big breast, nipple hard and erect...amongst others.... i had my toys layed out next to me and he talked dirty to me as the ears of my rabbit vibrated hard against my clit making me moan... I held the phone against my ear with my shoulder as with one hand I used my rabbit and with the other inserted another favourite toy, a long smooth pink vibro inside me... he wanted to hear me cum.... it didn't take long.... wow.....

I've had phone sex before, a long time ago, and it didn't really do much for me to be honest... but this was hot.... we talked of meeting for real.... both of us want it soooo badly....

we will see what happens.................

yes thats right...Dick...could do with some of that right now! Hot and horny and manless!!!! could contact FB.... could contact ex (who wants me to relocate)... FB is fine for just that...fucking..... the ex would complicate things....I would want good sex and cuddles..... not necessarily moving house though.... !!! God why is life complicated!!! Where's a good man when you need a good fuck?!

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Well you know i told you about the ex who was asking about me relocating etc etc and i've been thinking about it even more... yes I think i've definitely decided to see what he says if I asked HIM to relocate - that seems the best idea don't you think? Then i'd really get to know what he feels for me....If he's changed at all....

maybe i'm just destined to always be on my own? Maybe.... and if that's so then so be it. I mean, its not like i'm desperate to have ANYONE...i've rejected a lot of the guys i've gone out with for one reason or another - don't get me wrong, not for silly reasons - but if i've felt it just isn't working, or that i'm doing all the giving and not receiving enough time etc off them... or if, like the last major b/f in my life, he cheats... then i won't settle.... I have always said I won't settle and I'm not about to start now. It has to be true love with trust, loyalty and mutual respect. I don't think that's too much to ask for is it?

You know how certain songs bring back memories straight away of a specific time and usually, a specific boyfriend...? well a very specific song came on the radio this morning whilst I was in the car and I dared myself to look at pics i've moved off my phone onto my memory card (so as not to accidentally look at them)... of my ex.... it still hurt...it cut like a knife actually... and that was many months ago - but i don't regret telling him to get his stuff and go.... It very nearly killed me breaking up with him but I won't settle for a relationship with a man knowing he is cheating on me - after all, that's not even really a relationship anyway is it? He had seemed surprised when I told him to get his stuff and leave - obviously he underestimated me.

Im still trying desperately to be good where the man at work is concerned - despite constant flirting and egging on from him... i'm being strong and being a good girl.

Damn its hard though. Somestime life as a bitch seems highly wonderful and I think I should try it....if only I could!

Anyhow i've wittered on enough on here for now me thinks! ha ha ...

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One of the downsides of being a singledon is the lack of cuddles.... it is really sad for someone who adores being cuddled and cuddling as much as I do not to have arms around me at night to cuddle up to... our naked bodies entwined as we slip into slumberland....their breath gently fanning my cheek as we doze.... yeah .... I miss it xxxxxxxxx

Well last night I bumped into my FB....we never let on to anyone else, our mutual friends etc, that we are FB's... that we have a "kind of" relationship.... it just seems to mutually work for us both - I don't think either of us want a proper relationship..... I was therefore a little surprised when, in front of our friends, his hand would rest on my bum and he would lean in close to me and leave little kisses on my neck.... it was a pleasant suprise mind... but i'm still not under any illusions... he was making it clear to me that he wanted us to have a session later.... but I had work to go to today, he lives in another town nearby and so it wasn't going to happen, even though I would have liked it to. Still, I did wink at him and ask him what he's up to wednesday!.... ha ha ha .... we'll see..... I wonder if Wednesday will be FB night....

In the meantime I've got an ex b/f keep texting me serious relationship questions...what would I do about this... would I move and relocate... questions about the future.... i've told him yes I would relocate etc ... now i'm not so sure... isn't this, after all, what happened previously and what in the end made me finish it? Cos I was doing all the giving.... giving up my place, moving from my friends and many other things... if this is meant to be then i've decided it HAS to be different from last time. We will see what happens...watch this space....!!

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well, by the time i'd come out of the shower, dripping with water I was also feeling so wet that I thought I would burst! Laying out my selection of toys I scrabbled round the bedroom searching desperately for more batteries as the ones in the toys appeared to have run down...I wonder why that is??!!! ..... finding a few I managed to bring myself to wonderful orgasm 8 times in 10 minutes and settled for that... I find that I also love my arse being tantalised at the same time as my clit and wow.... yes ... 8 lovely orgasms later I'm feeling able to breathe again!!!!

Thank god for Ann Summers is all I can say!!!!!!xxxxxxxxxxxxx

You join me just as i'm about to go up to my shower... I have to you see.... i've just been imagining what i'd like to be done to me right now and now i'm fucking horny.....

I'll share it with you.....

His lips would leave gentle butterfly kisses at the base of my naked back... slowly, teasingly moving upwards...making me shiver with anticipation... my breathing would quicken as his lips brushed against my bare shoulder, moving slowly around to my neck... near my earlobe, along my jawline...his hands would roughly grab a handful of my long blonde hair, pulling my head roughly backwards as his kisses neared my parted lips... teasing me with the tip of his tongue.... my naked breasts heaving and rising, the nipples erect and hard.. with one hand holding tightly onto a handful of my hair, his other hand would come round and cup my smooth breast, his thumb rubbing the nipple hard, his lips and tongue forcing my mouth open even more, his hand pulling my hair even harder as he forces his tongue into my wet open mouth making me gasp as he pushes himself against me harder...

I feel his erection straining against his jeans and rub along the length of his hardness making him moan... I unzip his jeans and my hand slips around his hot throbbing cock, releasing him from the confines of his jeans.... his erect cock stiff and hard in my hand... I gently slide my hand up and down its length and suddenly I push him back and lean down to lick the tip of his cock whilst my hand is still hard around the base... my lips brush against his balls making him groan and I take a ball in my mouth and move my tongue rapidly over its softness....moving it around in my hot wet mouth....

God i have to go now............. HOT SOAPY SHOWER IS CALLING ME.... soapy suds.... hot water cascading over my naked body... my hands squeezing my breasts....

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Hello hello hello..... no i'm not a policeman.... but if I was i'd certainly know what to do with that trunction! ha ha ha .... well, last time I "got any" was a few days ago and i'm hot and horny minutes later, never mind days later! But, despite what you may think after reading my blog and deciding i'm a sex starved maniac .... ha ha ha ...its also love i'm looking for...i wanna be this hot and horny all the time still but with MY man!! Trouble is.... where is he??!!!! ha ha ha ha ....

A bit random this... but you know when you see something that you just can't help but laugh at even though you know you shouldn't really? Well i was driving back from my friends (after getting lost numerous times!) and as I was driving along I saw a man...well i saw the bottom part of a man walking along blindly with at least 4 big sofa cushions in his arms... and he walked straight into the lamp post in front of him!! ha ha ha ha ..... i nearly crashed I was laughing so much. It was a classic!

You know, I was visiting a friend last night and she had some of her other mates over too and it was a bril night, loads of giggling and silly dancing and acting daft... and the girls are all very pretty, one girl in particular is stunning and yet, she finds it hard to find a fella! I just don't get it! You men - what did they teach you on Mars??!!!

I just got another text off an ex b/f who is from years ago but we still keep in touch... we are talking of getting back together ... eventually.... Is it wise though I ask myself? aren't they an ex for a reason??? Maybe though, after all these years, we've both learnt to appreciate each other more and have learnt whats important... ?

Who konws? Maybe we will get to meet again soon and find out instead of keep talking about it.

Anyhow...due to lack of sex for me tonight....I have treated myself to some yummy Maltesers.... something good to roll around in my mouth.... ha ha .... I am now going to enjoy whilst watching the results of X Factor.... Yes...i know...its Saturday night and i'm in.... boring? no... just bloody broke!!! ha ha ha

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well they say chocolate is nearly as good as sex don't they??! well... i would have to disagree... but the fact that I have no man handcuffed to my bed railings at this moment means chocolate seems to be my only alternative... but i'm trying to be good and not give in to the temptation! ha ha ha

Although last night I certainly gave into temptation didn't I? That was good and I need more.... but we aren't in a relationship as such .... and I don't actually want a relationship, exactly, with FB anyway, just sex. It's just that I need it ALL the time.... "sigh"....WHERE is there a man for me that can keep up??!!!!!!

There's a guy at work that has me hot all day...and I know I have him hot all day as well...cos i've often felt the bulge in his tight trousers of his suit..... he loves it...and so do I!.... but he's not available and I keep trying to stop our filthy texts and smouldering looks .....but you know when you have that connection?? That sizzle?? It just won't go away!!!!

I have strong principals about marriage, relationships and loyalty. I was married for a decade and I never once cheated...although I know my then husband did... and in every single relationship i've ever been in I can honestly say I've never ever cheated... not even so much as a kiss.... that's how much I believe in it... this guy though....god, I am wet as soon as I look at him! I feel myself tingling and I watch his lips as he talks imagining them on mine, kissing my neck, licking my erect nipples.... he feels exactly the same...we keep trying desperately to ignore it....

Then the other day I just suggested we should just do it...get it out of the way... once it's done and we've got what we wanted... maybe then it would disappear and we wouldn't be tempted anymore and driving each other insane! I just don't know what to do....he's a friend too, not a close one but a friend. We get on really well. But I wonder if i'd just be setting myself up again for MORE heartache if I gave in... and I totally disagree with it anyway...so again I resist and keep being a good girl.

Today I was so horny at work and I kept putting the beads I was wearing into my mouth, swirling them around with my tongue... it drove me even more insane!.... FB last night really really LOVES my BJ's.... i think it makes all the difference in the world if you really love to do it... and I do.... I enjoy it.... and that's why it's so good.

Anyway, i'm sitting here typing this and biting my lip and my nipples are getting all hard again so i'm going to have to go.... hot bubble bath calls me then a fun time in bed with my toys me thinks.... well... a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do....hasn't she?!

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