Well this is me in NOT a good mood. Not very often im like this but today if its not one thing its another! I think i'm seriously gonna give up on men - all of them! I was jokingly thinking i'll become a nun!! but then I realised i couldn't possibly be a nun owning half of Ann Summers....so that's out! Instead i'm gonna go shopping and buy a trolleyful of multipacks of duraceell and never look at a man again! :(

Okay you know what happened with the guy I met don't you...well ..we got on really well and had chatted for weeks for hours on end and had gotten quite close i thought... he talked of a future together and all that... then after we get together things changed.... he just wasn't the same and i can't be doing with games. Stuff him.

I've turned down a date from another guy tonight cos I really think i'm just going to give up :(

i'm so bloody stupid to believe everything a man tells me. I know I am. And i'm never gonna change so ..... why let myself be put through all this heartache over and over and over again???

On top of that, the fires bloody broken ... again... and that being the only source of heat its bloody freezing ....and i'm broke... and a few other things...and its like ...god, kick me when i'm down why don't you.

Fuck it im gonna run a hot bath and have a good cry I think. Nowt like a bit of self indulgence. Don't get me wrong my problems are nothing compared to a lot of people who may be homeless or ill or soomething like that, i know. I'm very much aware that i'm feeling sorry for myself. But you know what? I can't help it.

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