Hi all ....sorry i don't write every day, i just write when i feel like talking if you know what i mean besides, you would be bored stiff having to read my rantings and ravings every day!! lol ... so i come here sometimes every day, sometimes every 2 or 3 days ..... some of my friends write a few blogs a day...i'm not that interesting i'm afraid! xxxxxxxxx

well..... i can "officially" say i've got a ...oh my god...dare I say it...BOYFRIEND.... lol.... however .... as usual with me and as much as you would expect from me by now i'm sure..... i'm all mixed up and not sure whats happening!!!! we got together - its the man i met online by the way ...... we got together, had a fantastic time, lots of laughs, cuddles (and yes, i admit we had sex....i was going to wait but it just felt right so why not....4 times in less than 24 hours!Ace!)... and we hugged as we said bye and talked of stuff we will do in the future etc.... and we text and email and stuff every day... he's got a lot on his plate at the moment ...... but still, he doesn't say I miss you as smuch as I say it and i KNOW women can be a nightmare and i'm never happy!!!! but seriously.... so after talking to my friend about it she suggested i play it a bit cooler... more friends than anything and see how he responds... not too cool but not too over the top either.

Men. I'll never understand any of you.

we haven't even arranged the next date yet am I an idiot????

thinking how this must sound to you, i would say a big definite HELL YES WOMAN CAN'T YOU SEE WHAT A TIT YOU ARE???!!!

but he IS a genuine guy. And we've chatted today... just chit chat...anyway i'm off to bed.... sad and wanting to cry oh god i'm sooooo fed up!!!! think i'm gonna join the nunnery!!!!!! black is SOOOO my colour too!!!!

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