Hi again...well...so much for me getting out my toys and being a good girl... I decided I needed some TLC so texted this guy that I see every now and again, we just have sex, so I suppose he's what you would call my Fuck Buddy... but its not like we meet weekly or anything...just when it suits us both and the time feels right...and of course when neither of us are in a relationship... anyway, texted him and he came and got me and we "gonna watch a film"...We even got so far as putting the DVD into thd DVD player... but before we'd even pressed start we were half undressed on the couch... I suggested we head upstairs which we did quickly and had some pretty damn good sex I have to say! Well, more brilliant foreplay than anything else but it was JUST what I needed...!!! Two orgasms later and I felt a bit sated, ready to be taken back home... the guy wanted to go again...normally I would too...but my head is all mixed up cos of the mixed up fella I'd recently been seeing and was now over.
Whilst I was stood waiting for my FB (Fuck Buddy) to come pick me up I was pondering why I was doing this...After all, I was gutted about the b/f.... so why the hell was I doing this??
Then it hit me.... not only did I need a bit of TLC... I also needed to feel desired... wanted... that I'm attractive and sexy... and although I may feel empty afterwards (cos at the heart of all this I am, believe it or not, a very nice girl), it was what I needed at that moment. So I went ahead with it and it was great. I'm home now. I've left him wanting more.... (he was plenty satisfied believe me... but wanted more 
!) but I felt, like I had known it was what I needed at that time to go to be with him, I felt it was right that I was back home. After all, this guy and me, my FB, have never actually been on a date, we just end up shagging each other sometimes. We are friends and respect each other but that's as far as our relationship will ever go, bar the sex.
We left it that we might meet up again at the weekend though..... that would be fun....
I seriously have to think about where my head is at at the moment though - I mean yeah, I need sex.... not just want it but NEED it!! but I also need the loving arms around me all night and little kisses and the murmuring of sweet nothings in my ear....dozily kissing each other as we fall asleep in each others arms... not with FB... don't get me wrong.... but with SOMEBODY.... and not just anybody...it has to be right.... but where the hell is HE??!!!
Answers on a postcard please........!!!
Ta ta for now........
Confused but reasonably satisfied, lonely, mixed up girl! Nite nite xxx
